Saturday, December 22, 2012

He aint heavy? ..being HUman;"HaPpY ChRiSmItH"

He aint heavy? 
..being HUman;
"HaPpY ChRiSmItH"

"Man is unreasonable, illogical and selfish It doesn’t matter – love him. If you do good, they’ll say you’re selfish. It doesn’t matter – do good. If you realize your goals, You’ll find false friends and just enemies. It doesn’t matter – realize your goals. The good that you do will be forgotten tomorrow. It doesn’t matter – be true. Honesty and sincerity will make you vulnerable. It doesn’t matter – create. If you help people it might be bad for you. It doesn’t matter – help them. You give the best you can to the world. The world repays you with punches It doesn’t matter – give the best you can"

.........Yesterday, as expected the "end of the world" didnt happen, maybe for some people it did, and certainly for some ppl with temperatures of -50 (thanks "to results of seldishness causing "global climate change"?) it must have felt that way... I told Liz on Fb that the world did end - I just "re-booted the matrix" one noticed.. ;)

As we brought Ste.' Dad home -incredible that the doctors sent him home, and the stress on Ste and I felt..hmmm shoudl I be here of go ..even though i have "good intent" those words I had to repeat to keep a positive spirit solstice comes and the days will get longer and maybe we do enter "the age of aquarius..

"Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules…

a "suitable FAIRY" for THIS xmas?
 You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do is ignore them because they change things… they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do."  

      I "planned" a "day after" party ..(see below) but with Ste's Dad sleeping in the living room  anyway its unlikely we shall party here tonight.. (i was just writing this for my personal log..) ...but i hope his "friends" like to visit Ste (as he will be "housebound" forseeable future) ...??? His "ex" is supposed to come and decorate a xmas tree....I think this "fairy" suits the mood...  would prefer to see Vicky from Liverpool (in REd suits.) or Monica B....;) to warm my solo (so low?) bed..

....I dont know if you will understand , I propose to who ever  bothers to read, these things are meant to be... this time..when "ethic" is supposed to be ...done rather than just "said" on greetings cards & xmas lights..

My own father died whilst I was away travelling ...he fell out of the ground floor window at home, whilst cleaning..broke his hip, and somehow went during the operation that far as i know he never suffered..

contrast that...with this;

I met Ste. not more than a couple of months ago..he had been taking interim jobs because his profession didnt have any positions , he had been responsible for a lot of people and travelled most of the world

Many aspects & experiences of his life were similar to mine , and so we discussed some "possibilites" for 2013.. as I have had experience in  "starting from scratch" I said I would support an idea that could allow him to regain his dignity...but "fate" took a hand

He had been working the "night shift" and visiting his father who had heart & leg complaints...until a few weeks ago it turned critical..Ste had to agree to an amputation of one of his Dads leg to ..prolong the life... but the constant visits to hospital meant he had no time to rest..either give up his night job or...probably...give up his Dad...(?)

what a choice.. I was planning to travel in december..whilst my place in Toloshi needed some renovation..but without a job, Ste could even afford his rent/living expenses, so we agreed I would share his larger accomodation...

Only a week ago his father had to have heart surgery, with the risk of failure..maybe he wouldnt survive.. the strain on Ste was bolied over when we argued about what to do..with the projet we planned.
I am the only one who saw the situation..

I was plannign to go to Liverpool enjoy a weekend of footy and party then spend a long 10 days of xmas+  with a nice girl in Vilnius and she planned a special programme, being withOUT "family" myself - most of the recent xmas time (since I split with my last dutch girlfriend 3 years ago) have been killing time
(and memories of those i loved and lost) alone...I was looking forward to it..,

I had to postpone my travels , even though It was difficult to explain to "G" .exactly "why".....then the weather intervened making it almost impossible even to get from Pg to Bg airport ... but i was still stretched COULD i leave this poor depressed guy , who himself was so "down" over the state of his dad, that i feared the worst IF I left him "cope"..

Doctors seemed to load him with all the decisions..2 departments one rseponsible for heart , and the other for the legs (even suggestign they may have to amputate the other) played "ping - pong" with this Dads problems..

then, just ONE WEEK after his Dad had the operation..and less than a week from being in the "intensive care" section..
TODAY, they sent him home. and I had to go with Ste. to pick up his Dad..LITERALLY this is "holiday time"  ....
and there is NO "ambulance service " for "non-emegencies" !!!!!

WE had to use 2 taxis to bring back the wheelchair (borrowed from hospital) ...taxis have cost Ste (with my support) more than food or rent this last month!!

His dad is now propped up on a bed-chair in the living room...we shall have to share 24/7 supervision..

the emotions I share ...because...

i didnt say "goodbye" to my own father..this is another "karma story" of my life..


21. 12, 2012... no its not the end of the take care of someone who needs it!
visit a neighbour who is alone? to a stranger who is without a home.. be kind to a man who has no family..he might be you one day ..or me..

p.s. but ...I dont have anyone to depend on, and i dont want ever to be in the same situation as Ste's, even if its a violent death, i hope I go quick, even soon,,please shoot me, rather than die slowly without dignity...""

Updates/messages (?) & "LINKS"

G, as u are into RED hair ..what about REd Noses?
Red Nose Day is coming on Friday 15th March 2013. Save the date and get your ideas and tools to help plan your fundraising early.

for Maija, What your Birthday says about your career? Find at
    Liga Ozola redz,Maijin, nebus nekada slinkošana, jastrada! un ne sev, bet citiem:))) P.S.vispar sasoditi precizi šitas tests pasaka...See Translation
    Maija Saule nav iebildumu!!
        Jolanta Kuprisa nu ko Maijuci par ko klusim?
ChRiS> so u will CAD an eco-construction that will become a shop, that is built in a hole in the ground and grow a new form of chemical plant , and go to court to get it passed, whilst doing sit-ups ???  === ;)


the emlyn ("Crazy Horse") connection...a spiritual co-incidence from my youth.. (rest in my heart, he left the planet in 2004..!)
("Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules… You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do is ignore them because they change things… they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.")

to the CSerS network  121220

HiyA (from Montenegro) our location is becoming very popular,, i had a great time hosting this year, .. but also increasing numbers of (false) "plastic CSerS" who really just want cheap bed & move on without "enjoying" for me the "spirit" of this network ; sharing

...and the danger is for me to become too "cautious" ..obviously i can write "nagative" comments on their profile,
 but this is time-wasting and often causes some ridiculous "revenge" your reaction?? also "accidentally" when I travel (rarer these days )
i happen to meet CSerS or potential CSers who are travelling alone, and many of my surfers woudl have appreciated " travel companions" its fairly EASY to add a small software to the website stating profile name, dates of travel, departure and destination? whcih could save CSers money or at least share costs of travel (and also encourage some who are nervous of exploring new regions alone?? i may not be "on line" later ; so hope someone could reply to or at a later date?? ChRiS :)

Seán: "Never approach a bull from the front, a horse from the rear or an idiot from any direction"

Milos A> shared a link Lewisville, Texas gun range offers...: "Kakvi debili!"
Lewisville, Texas gun range offers pictures with gun-toting Santa Claus
( A Santa Claus in North Texas is packing more than presents.... 

CS> the "american dream"  = the World's NIGHTMARE

the yankers "titanic" sunk a long time ago!
Http:// 22nd December
Ignore "the end of the World" ...because thats NOT as important as getting the awareness of Justice.. Worldwide someone who has lived abroad most of his life and struggled to overcome global ignorance because it was "too easy" for people at home or abroad follow the herd & govt. mis-information that Liverpool people were to blame,..along with 1985 this was a time that hurt DEEPLY destroyed or damaged people and permanently shattered a dream..and especially dreams of 96 of our REd brothers & sisters...I took a dutch Red to Anfield a few years ago, who knows how crazy a REd I am

..he could not get it that I ignored the match and just stood up and stayed standing keeping everyone around me singing "stand up for the 96" @ Anfield
..I have been lucky enough to have been to fanstastic games and journeys in britain and across Europe as a travelling REd
..but that moment when the WHOLE  stadium got it..and also when 28,000 of us turned up for the 20th anniversary of this CRIME against us.. will mean more to me in identification of WHY I will fight to retain what was, & is still special against all the commercial exploitation, etc.

...I am less impressed that politicians, judges and lawyers & such jump on board to "accept" what WE ALL, I AM impressed when WE cement the bond amongst us that makes us (and should always make us) different from any other supporters (and use that word rather than "fan") WE SUPPORT our team and each other... and may that stay beyond ..the "end".. JUSTICE for the 96, JUSTICE FOR ALL....because WE are THE CLUB! ... make this Number your hearts! (free video link..worth watching even if u dont like footy!!)


 i know its "impossible" that u would come to my part(Y) on 22nd december (saturday) but I dont care, I always believe in making the impossible..and overcome all ...walls..between us,,
... although we arent "friends" (and u probably wont come..) i will kindly invite YOU anyway in the spirit of "goodwill" (of this time..)

 ..hope u survive... /=============================================================== (for TRUE REdS)

coming soon to U.........MONTV ???
"during these "millenium warnings" its clear that the predictions are a general clue..nothing happens just on one day, although one day may be your last..the capitalist/dictator "system" of hierachy (pyramid) is as doomed as the titanic..its obvious to any INTELLIGENT beings that negative & selfish attitudes will bring a NASTY (nazi) end... royalism, religeous extremism, political corrruption , industrial pollution; through to media manipulation ; the greed is God generations of "me me me " worship of money and materials ; the poisoning of the planet that feeds you "i must have my car" the decline in sharing ^ caring..and SELFISH mentality "HIT THE ICEBERG" a long time ago (50 years ..give or take) ..and if you dont build a positive lifeboat then i estimate one in a thousand will survive"...CS 1999) ..but i was only joking, folks... ..carry on with the party ;) for those who survive.. day after..the end of the world party
22 dec ->17 january in Podgorica-Zabjelo! (C1A link ..ha ha ha!?)

ChriS SmiTH

TRue today as when the words were written..

"The road is long
With many a winding turn
That leads us to who knows where
Who knows when
But I'm strong
Strong enough to carry him
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

So on we go
His welfare is of my concern
No burden is he to bear
We'll get there
For I know
He would not encumber me
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

If I'm laden at all
I'm laden with sadness
That everyone's heart
Isn't filled with the gladness
Of love for one another

It's a long, long road
From which there is no return
While we're on the way to there
Why not share
And the load
Doesn't weigh me down at all
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

He's my brother
He ain't heavy, he's my brother..." (even when he isnt....) & for Adam

the emlyn connection...a spiritual co-incidence from my youth..
This is an emotional time ; for the "usual reasons" , personal reasons (remembering the family i lost) and J4t96...which may finally reach global awareness, although there can never be justice after 23 years, we may be able to find a resting place for our REd brothers & sisters...and a spiritual co-incidence "he aint heavy" by the hollies was a favourite song when I was a bairn, and I recall a photo in a footy mag (maybe "football monthly" ?) with "Crazy Horse" my favourite player at the time, i even wore the n.6 shirt and "copied" his style when i captained my own team as a lad.. The photo had Emlyn (Hughes, the Liverpool captain) climbing all over Hurst , and everton defender for Big Em to score the first goal in a surprise 0-3 victory @ goodison...the caption..and i remember this VIVIDLY was .." he aint heavy..... he's my brother....from down Anfield way..." ... all these years go by, and i can see that photo and hear that song again today as if it was yesterday.. :) CSerS: Trust , Empathy ..or..."preparing for the day after..the end" (V?) there a time....? ..ask me on the 22nd..!

Dici che il fiume
Trova la via al mare
E come il fiume
...Giungerai a me
Oltre i confini
E le terre assetate
Dici che come il fiume
Come il fiume...
L'amore giungerà
E non so più pregare
E nell'amore non so più sperare
E quell'amore non so più aspettare

ChriS SmiTH> ?? "Is there a time" 

Interesting choice of words.."Buck" is too "commercial" :) (the colours are "mad" but the content true, a reminder fom 2 years ago)  CS>BalkanREDS>I am a lifelong REd and the LiverBird belongs to the people, not to the yankers "fANchise" ..! Supporters worldwide made it famous, with our banners and global support, take me to court when I wear our supporters club t-shirt, Mr. Henry, I DARE YOU! :) ( via Liverpool Echo Online ·)


  1. ChriS SmiTH posted in The DAY after..."the end of the World" party

    ChriS SmiTH
    11:40pm Dec 21
    party with OUR CLUB... the day after..and the day after that...and every day next year.. ;) well almost..

    CS & LIVE r BIRD footy CLUB
    • an open social not for profit club to bring people together who know how to party & enjoy themselves...

  2. ChriS SmiTH posted in CS & LIVE r BIRD footy CLUB

    ChriS SmiTH
    1:28am Dec 21
    club member benefits ;

  3. ChriS SmiTH posted in The DAY after..."the end of the World" party

    ChriS SmiTH
    20 December 23:36
    my home planet' s spaceship will collect survivors from out side our place after saturdays party... so no need to book yr taxis,after , ;)

  4. ChriS SmiTH posted in The DAY after..."the end of the World" party

    ChriS SmiTH
    11:15pm Dec 20
    does anyone need directions to Saturday's party?? some people have confiirmed,..but no-one asked me for directions..ha ha ha are u nervous??? :D LMAO!

  5. personal notes 121222 and paid e15 for cards.. fruit bad (even when i buy stuff u dont eat it..)

    hello Ste,

    I am writing from a net station in Pg, today was 3rd time we had

    in only 3 weeks... ! I feel I have been exceptionally "supporive" but
    it seems a one-way street... ...


    I appreciate the situation with yr father.. I offered to share supervision
    of yr Dad ,,, in deed this morning i gave him his pee-bottlr and emptied it
    in the toilet... how many others *let alone a "stranger" >>>> would do

    I know YOU are STRESSED ... I get it ...but moaning at ME ,,,one of the "idiotic" isnt it>?

    Its cost me over 600 euros...MY decision..

    to support YOU and the situation...
    - 250 euros for the company
    - advance of e290 for 2 months until end janaury,, for
    room/tv/net/electric *shared ,,and now 3people,,,!! yr dad has a pension
    - another e20 cash this week,,,
    - about 100 euros in shopping and taxi *inc drinks yesterday *e25
    *(I would not normally spend)
    - and about 100 e to change my travel plans.. was MY decision to stay with you ..but i dont expect petty moans
    and "attacks"...

    I wash up clear up and CLEAN UP after you...mostly when you are out...
    WHO puts the plates away? me!, I have hoovered once a week, its yr ash on
    the floor... I cleaned up cobwebs in living room..who took out rubbish ?
    me! every time! ...

    I cooked twice this week (*meat I bought)and made a soup you ignored..yr
    on wednesday we planne to make a BIG shopping together to get Meat, Eggs
    etc for party & weekend,..

    on thursday you were at the ospial, and yesterday - I tried to talk to you
    but yr head was elsewhere, and YOU insisted that you would bake thursday
    and cook for your Dads homecoming yesterday ..what do you expect???

    to make a problem over small things..?? when WE both (ME TOO!!!) have
    emotional issues that cause strain...well ...!!!

    obviously you want me out, but communicate honestly dont make some problem
    to cause it..

    I have been MORE than FAIR to you..