ANOTHER PIECES OF THE PUZZLE ? SEE PREVIOUS 2

 

“Freedom is never granted; it is won. 

Justice is never given; it is exacted.”

(fREEDOM E union AIMS & OBJECTIVES ; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N5sFE8nBgSc

watching the "classic film" Casablanca ..as I see around me now prime examples,as they buirn nature and construct more & more ...local & global, that show me how the modern sheeple allowed fascist dictatorships to take control ....on or offl line..

the apathy of the average . who has his/her mobile phone/tv/waSh machine /car & cOMFORTS  doesnt care if adolf/satan himself runs their society as long as they are "comfortable"

the Slovakian owner of property who "didnt noitice " that I had suffered a damp bedroom, 10 days of bronchitis, ..just reminds me that my parents would laugh at the "coroNATION PLANdemic" ..they survived the blitz,,,as the majority hide from a heavy flu bug....and accept extreme controls of movement & contact amongst the public... 

Me ? well they taught me well. and as I left Isis ...in my early 20s I wasnt goign to be "dictated to"..either

so I walked away, confident that I would find another position ... a football colleague told me of a sales exec job available at his office... so I borrowed the neighbours car and went and got the job (also in London) ..but a truck forced me off the road (by accident) on the return and i smashed through a lampost writing that care off, (the 2nd in a couple of weeks, ,,,having written of the new Isis car on holiday) 

The neighbours took it well, it was the truckers fault, so they could claim a new car... so i went on the road for the "Int express" ..but after only a week their general manager didnt like that I called him "Jim" (Petch?) //...so I told him what he could do with the job///... and went to work for Calberson..

They wanted someone to develop new wine services from Burgundy/bordeauX regions.. being a Paris based logistics operation (the largest in Europe) i found favour due to a social contact from France who made soe compliments about me.. and I was quickly accumulating a lot of new shipping orders fro them...

then after  almost a year , i got a personal call from "Roy Sims" of Essel Shipping, who invited me to visit their offices in London ( a lot of the the new orders I was acquiring was at the expense of Essel, but I was enjoying my time, doing my "own thing" at Calberson.. developing new services & succeding.. ) 

However, I was curious and as Roy & his co-director owners entertained me in their boardroom, i simply enjoyed the experience ..then.. I asked "ok why am I here ?"  Roy then said "we want you to be commercial manager for us! ..what do you want...?" 

I was happy at Calberson, i had a virtual free hand, i had my flat with my girlfriend Gaye in Abbey Wood, close to central London,, a decent salary & expenses paid... company car etc.. so i thought to myself "Ok I will ask for something too expensive for Essel!" )  ....so I told them i wanted DOUBLE my salary ... Roy said "ok" in reply //straight away, and "what else"  ??

There was a new sporty Ghia car on the market , so I said "this car too" ///....  Roy replied, "well thats better than Mike our general manager has, but... ok!" ,,, now I was confused , so I went back to tell John Hopkins my immediate director (boss) at Calberson, and he said he would ask the group chairman..  after a week or so. they came bak & said  "ok we match the money, but not the car!"

I wasnt looking to leave Calberson, but something in me said " IF essel hadnt head-hunted , whenwould they have paid you the worth?" ..so I went to Essel. and soon realised that they simply "bought" me , to stop me being a rival. I was bored with little responsibiity, but I nooticed Mike (Seabrook) was struggling, so I took him to lunch and explaine dhow he shuld supervise the staff... and it worked like a machine...

I had some fun. going out to long lunches at the best restaurants in London, I was already an honourary Fellow of the Institute of Directors,, (Pall Mall) ,,and invited to many wine trade/social events.. played football whenever i could or went  to watch Liverpool Fc ...life was easy , then another french company (Pan European transport) offered me a position as UK managing director, , with nmore salary, commission, 5 year contract (By this time i was with Jacqui, and we even went to look at a big house in Poole , part of the deal..

so I told Mike....

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_____________________more pieces of the puzzle?

Monday; back...    the first time i have left my bed/couch and I return to find ther bathroom lighting failed, need a ladder (which this place doesnt have) to change the light bulb... wash/shower by candle power...

in the previous (first?) no, I have wriiten much in the past its just scattered through so many different logs & websites ... as usual I am writing for me as my children dont even know where I am, they dont know me, ...who does...?

its an element also or reaction of my life choices always "action man" & on the move (more difficultto hit a moving target)

(music on the radio GOOD ? lessons in Love , Level 42 ) 

in the previous (!) .. piece of my puzzle  (whowhat am i?) 

i wrote about now and some reflections back to my yeenage years,,,

as I moved into my twenties.. after the shock of GG leaving with the kids )"bored because i worked too much_) ...i had a chat with Allen (Isis bozz) and told him I was gooing to channel my energies into my career..this wasnt for his sake I was telling my self  ....the hurt of losing the kids from my life   (more than the bitch GG)  was typical of my style..  

and although footy was becomoing more difficult to play with my work commitments ( i was in the office every saturday, with no extran pay, my choice) ....I still have the Canvey Team, and they were great .. then I hooked up with Gaye her sister Julie was goign out with Mike Wood ( an ex schoolfriend  ...) // 

I was confident of my abiliites and HUNGRY for resonsibilities... Peter King was commercial manager , but soon I over took him and also managed the accounts,tarifs & shipping progs/....at 22/23 I knew more about isis shipppping ltd than the 2 mananging bosses (John Finch & Allen) Mitchell   ...

The footy lads rallied round , Dave moved in to share the house,, it was 4 Bedrrom. I borrowed on e of the lads lawnmower as the grass had grown.. which led to my temp nigh name ( I was team caopt still)   /// " Captain Lawnmower@ (Hornblower from the naval character_ )

We (the squad & fans)  went boating holiday to the broads with 2 boats and I unwound with Gate a very supportive partner ...i was also good for her..as she was a shy lass... 

then another "office drama" gave me a NEW life lesson./////

 

I wentinto the office (Barking Essex) early on a saturday as usual ( i like the quiet, and a chances to clear up & get on top of anything that I had not been able during the week..

But the open plan gneraloffice had all the chairs on the desks and the cleaners were polishing the floor,///

about 6 or so of us were fuming , wasted saturday, and the bosses didnt bother to mention it/// , we sat in the side room drinking our tea/cofffe and of course more moans came out... 

afterabout an Hour  I asked "ok so what are we ging to do@  (well we knew John & Allen were gainst "Unions" ..

.. so Paulm Glenn & I agreed that we would simply LIST things that we felt should be improved and see them at 08h monday morning... tomeet in the corredor between the gen offie/and their Directors room at 07/45hr

but , I was always early... so I am in the office about 07 h  and around 07,30/07.45 sauntering arounf the corredor...

when Allen comes walking through... we were on first name terms... he asked... "ChRiS why are you hanging around here , something wrong?" ...

I was fulllof adrenalin ... "ready for battle"   

waiting for paul & Glenn...   "WE NEED TO SEE YOU"  i blurted out... he half smiled,  "ChriS?  i see no "WE" i oonly see you, do you want a cup of tea? ",,, the directors room had ts own kitchen...  

So I was in the Lions den , alone...and just started my "presentation" when JOHN, the least friendly of the 2 came walking in, not too pleased that i was drinking Tea in thriroffice, it seemed... " somethign triggered  my attack"  so I just let them both have it... " I wasted my saturday ...and , this , and that is wrong ..and "...  //... after about 5 minutes of non stop agression (i dont think i swore but the tone was enough!) 

Although I was good at my job, & confident, I thought maybe i had gone too far,   they shut the door..  (no paul Glenn nor  anyone else ..its was now about 08h..) ..."Well. ChRiS  you are obviously upset, and we  dont liek Unions BUT we do need some comunicationn with staff... @ would you like to be that person?"  //

MY confidence grew... "wow. hold on, I am not going to be your yes-man and convey just what you want, what about what I/we want?  wjat authority do I have to negociaite??" 

John said " thats fair, we will accept certain flexibility on your part as lomg as you can continue to act easonable...

S o, at 23 I was "staff association orgabiser/negociator"   AND THIS EXPERIENCE TAUGHT ME SO MUCH ABOUT THE BOSS MENTALITY AND THE HERD...!!

(one armed bandit?)

bye bye new company car & Isis!

_________________220201 

another fecking storm in the night me running out ofbed to see where my terrace stuff has gone... the wind had again lifted the heavy plstic table across and trying to lift it over the neighbours wall...

so lets sing ( "to the tune somewhere over the rainbow"

"somewhere over the neighbour:s, my clothes fly..

shirts , pullies & sock , where & why...

the table goes for walkies acrross the tiles

and the small ashtrays i cant see for miles"

                  &

it must be funny for "OTT God" to see me naked

chasing around the place..

in the dark, with an angry face..

somewhere over the mountains OTT God must smile"

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why do i call him/her/it "OTT god"  because it overloads on punishment... if i do something small wrong...i get an OTT (over the top") drama to deal with..

Today its NO lighting in the bathroom... well luckily i know my own face & body quite well by now...candlelight...will have to suffice

yesterday it was the eletric fan finally giving out, but I dont recall making any mistakes, or ding much wrong, maybe just shouting obseneties at the world was enought to get a "OTT god" yellow card!??

on reflection I perhaps did SO much wrong with my career dominated success (and left behind the people I should have cared MORE for, Jacqui & my parents, Adam ?) that all these "dramas" of THIS life are retribution of "OTT god" from that life???

so... back to Isis shipping (oh if i had known the name would be so significant decades later..Isis!) ... I was King, there was a small group of 20 something middle managers , although I was discrete in my corporate / staff association leadership, even george Collier, gen manager ( who i related to the colonel in M A S H) didnt seem to have my command...

Jeff (hairy( Graham (sarcastic) Paul (Naive assistant to George) and myself would abandon our posts most friday mid-day and go off the the big music/stripper club on the other side of Barking, several pints and about 3 hoours later, George would again moan.. but we were all good managers,,,we never left anything hangign for him to do. ../he just felt he should say "something" ..

i had been there a while (years) and taken over from \Peter King..they gave me a brand new company car...so , the next summer decided to take Gaye to Bretagne / then down to Bordeaux to meet Daniele Duniau's family and holiday in that region too... but..

on the first day, viisiting L'Haridon transport mananger (a Scot; Alan, we had a good lunch ..after went for a drive in the countryside of Brittany, there had been some light rain,, snd the car slid as i took a curve ,onto the grass verge & flipped & rolled  ...and eneded up a twisted wreck...steam from the engime made it seem like smoke... and then i noticed something weird,,,

our 2 PASSPORTS had been on the top of  dashboard,,, were STANDING UP SIDE BY SIDE IN THE MUD, for a moment i just imagined a film camera panning to the scene,,, luckily...

neither of us was hurt, the uk jst recently had brought in obligatory seat belts and Gaye just a scratch on her chest and I....nothing...

I foudn a phone box |(no mobiles then) called Alan who replied "leave it with me , i know the local police") ...so that was it I thought end of holiday, we had a lot of stuff in the car & i wasnt looking forward to carrying it all back to St Malo..and home.. but we were invited to dinner at big Boss L haridon s villa that night...and he was great ...he asked his wife if she minded sharing her car with him for a few days and threw me his new Citroen CX 2000 (?) keys and said "njoy Bordeaux" ..

WE did ..with family Duniau & the pyranees,,but Allen of Isis wasnt so happy with me... I called in to tell him that there would need to be an insurance claim and the location of the garage in Brittany were the car was ...he was angry, I was cocky, and responded " BUT WE are Ok Allen!"  ..

the first day back at Isis , I went to him, and asked about personal transport , "you can share the old van, when its free"  .. i had a major role in that company..and i said, please Allen, I require a new car, its insurance and I need a personal car, he implied I had to wait, so I SAID " ok i AM Gone"  AND LEFT iSIS ..SILLY REALLY , a clash of Ego, unusual with Allen who was usually calm and clear & friendly to me... I KNEW I WAS THEIR BEST EMPLOYEE!  ...but young& arrogant ...!

220202

fresh , but sunny morning.. had a few dreams in the night...

made me think about Jacqui...

I was often in London for mettings and wine trade functions etc... often collecting GF Gaye from her office  and sometimes before taking her back to my (our) home in nearby abbey wood , would be invited for a quick gladdd in their boardroom with her boss (a virtual alchoholic)

.....Jacqui was Gaye's BF ...she was attractive , but there were also older attracive ladies working at their insurance brokers,, (Jill? also caught my eye ) i got to know most of the staff ( inc Mke Hunt ;) ////.... so I got invited to their next Xmas party..i t was almost 5 years since i had divorced and Gaye and i were good together... easy loving friendship..no complaints.. she even came to watch me play footy in the rain!

So, Jacqui & her FIANCE had been to our apartment for  a party, we had socialized a bit together... he was a bit LOUD , cockney/// ... but seeemed ok///... but I saw he was drunk at their firms xmas party,,,he was mouthing off at the rich (the venue was an expensive west-end location with dining & live band for dancing... I agreed with much he said but was it a good time to come out with it at their xmas party? hmmm //...  anyway i calmed him down & took him into their restaurant garden to cool down...

When I came back into the room. ..I saw Jacqui was nearly in tears, and some good dance music came on, so I grabbed her hand  and almost   pulledher onto the dance area and tried to cheer  her up ... then half way through the music slowed and i felt "protective" taking her in  my arms for a slow dance... and then it HIT me ... I looked into her eyes and smiled she smiled and I fell....into her....WOW! like magic!

So, i sat her back down fairly quickly , and sat at the opposite end of the dining table , i think talking to someone...but thinking "  NO NO NO thats Jacqui, our girlfiriend's best friend...and she is engaged and I am happy !!! " """ ..... so the evening passed ///...and i did my best to "file it away" ...

A couple of months later there was a general train strike..

WE all had to come in from the suburbs , Gaye had been at her parents and couldnt get in one day ... i had driven in to the city... Gaye called me at the office " I couldnt get there, BUT Jacqui travelled in from her parents , but cant get home, COULD YOU help take her home" ???  what could I say ..

and I was getting measles!  ... 

Because of the traffic it took about 3 hours to get to her parents and inside I AM FALLING for her all over again as we sat all that time together in the car,,, Jacqui didnt react, but it felt too easy being with her...  (as I am screaming in my head "NO No NO , you cant do this!"

Then///  

(after the drama I shall detail)

in 1979 we started S & S and one of my first business trips was to visit the Container transporting/shipping company of Seawheel at Ipswich... to negciate our annual contract as they were gpoing to be transporting a lot of the Italian wines ////.... 

There  was still some train strikes. resulting in many of the main roads in & out of & around the London/essex area being congested/// so , after a GOOD productive meeting for my own company I didnt want to sit in a traffic jam, I took a country road back from the suffolk/essex region.. and then it was if my car had its own mind... i was listening to my music tape on the car sterio, some soul music i think... and there was the sign for Wickford , where Jacqui was staying with her  parents (before getting married to her BF!) ...

I just drove straight to that house, not sure if she  was there (no cell phones) ... and knocked tentativelyon the front door... her mum (Joan) came to the door... she knew me because Jacqui & Gaye were BEST friends! ...asked in a suspiscious tone " and what DO YOU want@ ?  "  ///  i just about managed to reply " could i speak with Jacqui????" 

(she WAS there!) ///.... 

Jacqui came to the door with the same question... " I LOVE YOU!" i blurted out....

She invited me in...we talked a lot, and she had guessed my feeling and also felt something.. but was due to get married.. which she cancelled, one of the hardest things to do was then to tell Gaye, who I loved , but i was DEEP INLOVE with Jacqui... we were married 4th October 1980..

and Gaye stayed friends... eventually/////..

////... next ( Isis to  INT express to Essel to//// S & S!!!)

_________________________  

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Hello Robert

seems I overlooked this "reply" from you

it occaurs that now that your govt has aligned itself to the USA corp dictatorship

you are unable to provide such an "anti-establishment" net as OURS with sufficient protection.

ChriS SMITH

F & U Mission

Montenegro

 https://youtu.be/hPATgPF_uHI just a few pieces of a thousand puzzles?_________________

and my BRIEF pre coma video;;; just a few bits from my life pre coma (95) 7 minutes... and about 7 of 1000 experiences ;)   just a few pieces of a thousand puzzles?

alternatve

Video link

https://youtu.be/h42efqaE8-M 

 (if .... only 7 minutes,! ha ha ha doesnt tell anything more than a "taste" .. )  

APArtheid IN mONTY are YOU ASHAMED of the society you made???????

after walking some 11/2 kms to the nearest "town" I decided not to test the location who risk a fine for

having "an antiVaxer' inside ...the weather had been relatively mind en route, but a viscous cold wind blew up through the caffe ...result I have a touch of bronchitis since tuesday  (the taxi/bus service dont work in the morning,,,school holidays) just too bad for the rest ..ME! :p ...and then Thursday ..the other caffe was closed 

and i sat in freezing/wet weather (albeit under a canopy) for an hour before i realised they would not be opening at all.. despite their promises.. "every day at this time" 

feck em!

on the way back I was sort of introduced to lady ..who i was told is paid 250 e a MONTH for cleaning the school..

many of the parents are rich, in this tourist trap...and in nearby TIVAT there must be over 100 big YACHTS,,,in this little CUNTTREE... but its more or less the same local & global ...

___________________________

from the couch ..I have been " out of action" since thursday (cold added to bronchitis)

....the video link)  adds some minutes after the  COMA... ....so DECIDED to fill in the 1000s of " gaps" and mix in with some 

current affairs/opinion  AS I woulkd like to kick the BACKSIDES ...of all who still panic about the PLAN demic ..

whilst YOU are at REAL risk of being wiped off the planet ...zeeeeee ..GONE  for ever as it reminds me of Dr. Strangelove, 

(classic film) 

as insane USAcorp/REICH Wicker on some army committee wants NUKE war ...(its clear that many in the pentagon wanbt it too.) complete A-HOLES

THE (so called) UNITED NATIONS should be shouting down these maniacs ; as NUKES are ILLEGAL. they always should have been

 the Treaty on the Prohibition of Nuclear Weapons (TPNW)  was approved by 122 nations and has now been ratified by 59. As the 50th nation ratified the treaty, 

it came into legal force globally on January 22, 2021 ; bans developing, testing, producing, acquiring, possessing, stockpiling, and threatening to use nuclear weapons.

BUT of coourse the "dirty global sheriff"  doesnt apply laws or rules to the selfish aims of USAcorp , riskibng global destruction, POLLUTING OUR lands, water, air, seas,

food and MINDS OF OUR CHILDREN!

`

As a lad, I recall living with the threat of nuclear war, it formed our freedom, and many of the peace-protests... but todays population is too ignnorant...complacent

careless...and selfish too 

I became @independent" as a result of a life threatening accident when i was only FIVE years old, I fell on a broken bottle ... and had to spenmd 6 months ina specialist hospital in LONDON 

alone with adults, blind for 3 months ...then they uncovered my right eye for the oter 3 months ..one of the male patients had told me stories ...

taught me to "WINK" at the nurses with my "good eye" ... it was tough but made me strong ...

no TV , no wi-fi (my choice) ..so I am "re-cycling"  a few films on the old laptop....."Braveheart" ....highlighting the atrocities of the english, and the scottish nobles who exploited the people...as it happenend then abnd all over thye world since 

the rich build armies , enfore walls, barriers & frontiers 

idealistice teenager 13/14.15 years old;  "ball of confusion" , shapes ofthings" " mister your a better man than I" ..

.  To paraphrase Mark Twain, when the only tool in the toolbox is a hammer, then all of our problems will look like nails.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++220127 felt ready this morning to FRESHEN THE BED sheets & pillows 

i am on my sick bed and I FEEL the worst I can ever remmember...

its more so, because this last few month having to walk round trips of 20/25km or choosing to HIKE during reletively 

mild autumn/winter months until recently. PLUS RUNNING ALONG TH WILD BEACH  (AROUND BIG BLUE) HAd (had) 

heads still fuzzy & my chest convulsing every time cough (so I try not to..ha ha ha) 

cats taking the p&ss sauntering  on my terrace ...(i have ONE i tend to feed) but screaming at the others seems to raise 

my spirits , ;)  they are an an ugly crew ...the dogs of Janjice are wary of me too since our last confrontation..

I had a pet I loved , Pepe , in my early teens was a true friend , and intelligent ,  (would sit at the back door every evening

about 5 mins before my Dad came home from work (Gen foreman for "Taylor-Woodrow" at Heathrow airport construction) 

My Parents Bill & Nancy showed me a lot of love ...Mum was the power house (gen sec local Labour party) Dad was quiet , but so honest 

when he spoke every one listened he never lied!

Mum talked to me a LOT about life, politics and i heard her giving advices to those around  /// ... the back door was open // Mum:

"come in , sit down ..have a cuppa & tell me your problems.." 

this IS ONE OF THE BASIC THINGS MISSING NOW   ,  clearly ,,,THE ANTI SOCIAL DEVELOPMENT OF CITIES AND APARTMENT BLOCKS..

the Capitalist spawn & doing down the neighbours is reflected in every other aspect of society...

I was lucky enough to be able to give them a few good times (xmas with the whole family) later when I could afford it..

i bought the little semi they had lived from the council, so they didnt have to pay rent...   

 (via my trust) but the english tried (and partially suceeded) in cheating me later...and both deaths were peculiar, as all those,

close to me) 

I had so much respect for him, I never mentioned (for example) that at  the age of 26 I was signing a cheque for more than he was piad in a year) 

Before he died I had the chance for a few "beer lunches" at a local pub, & with a bevvy or 2 in himn, he opened up. (he had worked 

from age 16 , with ... so little appreciation for 50 years reliability ... : FECK the english government ! : )

whether / or who the a-holes were.."someone" saw my success....  and DID NOT LIKE ME!

==== before S & S  (10 years of "training" )

I had been a messanger/office/post boy, order clerk, drivers assistant...transport / logitics manager (G & J Porter 3 years)

(married GG, with adopted daughter Sarah)

Commercial assistant, accounts support, shipping organiser  /// commercial manager  ( Isis 6?)

(I was also STAFF association initiator & organiser)

new service developer at Calberson/ ...& Essel...  ( was it only 1 or 2 years?)  things moved so fast in this times!! 

220228...really heavy sweat last night..2 towels... could be  good sigb,, weather bed though... more heating,,

Michael knows that i let Nemanja take the other Radiator for repair...so what ddint the XXXXX do? selll it , keep it..

well conspiring to steal 2000 euros worth of furniture ... (ripe for a truly keen student advocate to get into eh?)

... by virtual of exiling the parties ensured i was in no spiritual position nor physical condition  do to the last minuute : first strike:

(closed doors & 5 minutes) with brothers & workmen supporting their aggression. & only MIchal knew i would be absent that friday

(enabling time to change locks) joint & several Alexsa, Nemanja & Michal.

I HATE TO SEE SHYTE...

Whether on my kitchen floor, on the paths & roads i walk/hike (dunped by locals, their kids, or Mamula  workers , or tourists,...

I WANT TO CLEAN IT UP... 

AND ....when I SEE MAIN Scum media liars..politians, or read the sh8te of PUNDITS "EXPERTS" and "LEADERS"

on the net " ..surprsingly the "alternatives" ANNOY the most with their WEAK opposition to the fascism my parents generation fought too hard

to defeat! (so they thought)

Mum was passionate ..but i recall her moanng about lazy labour voters ...(tories always got their voters out because their backers 

owned private buses etc ) jeez ,,i miss you mum, at least you didnt have see the dirty stinking corrupt  swamp the world is...i hope I gave you some good 

memories..

I loved playing ( still do IF i ever will play again, no one cares here...)  I played & captained 2 amateur clubs CANVEY

 united & Leigh Town fc ...saturdays were great ... afternoon match , exhaust myself..go for a cuppa with ALL the lads ...

it was the essence of humanity "true human Team bonding" the way GOOD community SHOULD be

..almost every weekend we had a party with the girls.. (VHS record Match of the day as OUR all-conquering LIVERPOOL team won most weeks) and often get up sunday morning to play again

"fit as a butchers dog"  ..sometimes steam would rise off my back as we came off for half times "oranges"... (often met 

at coach graham (Pennyfather) & talked footy and we socialized a lot, a couple of players like Glenn, were close...

if one of the players moved home. we were all"THERE"

(there are some pics around of the International tournament in Brussels too, we player french , belgian & german representatives but

we played every game drunk ha ha ha )

the funniest holiday was taking the whole Canvey team, my partner Gaye, & a few supporters on the norfolk broads..hired 2 big boats

one of our fans "Admiral" was a real joker.. good times..then in my early 20's i started international travel for my career..

++++++“A revolutionary is nowhere a foreigner and is a patriot everywhere.” This is what Osvaldo “Chato” Peredo, one of the great figures of Bolivian history taught ....

I liked geography & histoty BUT..in class I was "enthusiastic " about mental maths...I would usually raise my hand the quickest to answer the teacher..

probably in the migrain-disturbed years before I left,  Gavin (Stevenson) was the closest friend ..a bit nerdy but invited me a few times to play at his house..think he was a gooners fan,, at some time later we played join centre back for the local amateurs..

it worked, I tackled, attacked the ball (I was excellent in the air, outjumping players a foot taller than me by timing and a strong spring-jump into the ball) ..great stuff... sliding through the wet grass

to THUMP into a forward and come away with he ball.. Gavin literall "swept" behind me.. Dennis had gone to Oz with his family..often my bedroom was my own universe for my imagination,,,i recreated strategic battles ..and future worlds..

I just took the "risk" to have some of the POT i had since a week (i took out the meat, incase it was bad) i added

some local cheese, I had a ANOTHER heavy DREAM last night, this time I am telling HENDO (current Lfc capt) to wear something more appropriate to a silly party we were all at...I was laughing my socks of  at him though..

this morning, the Olive tree opposite my window is alive with its branches like arms.. and facisnated by the different

birds that come & go...including a Robin...or  a ...falcon!

"  Luther KING " “triplets of evil” – “racism, militarism, and materialism. = a “thing oriented society”"..be dissatisfied until men everywhere are imbued with a passion for justice.”... general public: “We need to come alive    again.” ( "I am somebody")

220130 05h this morning heavy fever (4th this week, hopefully last) soaked through, changed clothes & bed,,

had a shrt walk to  the Zanjice beach...& back (cold, its around zero C, but NOT cutting me at the coast, it tempers it..like LIVERPOOL/Canvey)

and .no "Christian" visitor ..well I didnt die, so no worry eh? /...

apart from the horror eye injury at 5 between 10-15 years old I had heavy migrains.. had to lay in a dark room

all day .missed a fair bit of school in the latter years so i sometimes "BUNKED IT" as I felt OUT of their "system" already by 15,,,still i was confident in my intelligence, they wanted me to stay on (extended year/college/UNI?) I didnt,..

16 at London office boy, adventure & a fantastic time, no drugs, didnt like ciggies, played footy,,loved the music

of 60/70s... no girls... but ..adopted a daughter married her mother, took a house, Transport/Logistics manager 19.

wife a b*tch, ran off after Adam born, Divorced at 21,,,took new career step, commercial manager ar "Isis" 

paid maintenance for her/2 kids for the next 16 years! so what? losing the kids was hurting.. so invested all energies in managing myself..new GF cared about me , 5 years,,,my London mainsonette at Abbey Wood, I loved her , she was a fan,

a friend, but...I fell IN love with her colleague & best friend ; Jacqui.. despite resisting the magic twice,,

Jacqui & I were married 6 months after!

.........prior to sick note...

Monday   , 

yes its "difficult" in some aspects to be ALONE "in exile"  here..but thanks to the UNIVERSE ..this morning as I hiked 5/6 kms just to get some bread, at 06.30 (cause thats when he passes through the peninsula) my mood was improved as I cast my eyes towards the nearny coast, and the HUGE moon was like a flaming BALL sitting on top of a not so distant mountain...thankS for this..and I am still alive ;)

I am disgusted by the constant BURNING of nature local & global... (why? for more new roads & construction..no invests in river & train...the better way_ ) as in Klinci I scolded the lad (or his boss) for polluting the air ANd destroying bushes *and wild life living there) as I walked back at the weekend..

Sunday ... 

Its funny because the sun shining and it feels nore like spring than winter ..a  lot of people drive down to "my coast" (and for sure will leave rubbish) the locals removed my temporary "sleeping policement" intended to slow the a-holes/& Mmamula worker / chiefs cars down... Z said "its hard here alone in the winter"  well, NO shops, no cafe, no washing machine, no TV (no wifi/mobile is MY OWN choice) with  a damp bedroom and a fewv idiots / stray dogs (difficult to tell them apart) still around...I resent them disturbing me when I want to sit in the sun   by "big blue" (caffe ruin, that I cleaned up, on wild beach) //...

better being "ALONE" than surrounded by the wrong sheeple...!

btw Z, if your propeller is still clogged up... I will dive...you just have to bring "Kristina" to me AND;

- a divers mask.

- a VERY sharp knife

- a flask of "slatka kafa " with a couple of rakija shots...

and I will solve it for you!

.........

Monday   , 

yes its "difficult" in some aspects to be ALONE "in exile"  here..but thanks to the UNIVERSE ..this morning as I hiked 5/6 kms just to get some bread, at 06.30 (cause thats when he passes through the peninsula) my mood was improved as I cast my eyes towards the nearny coast, and the HUGE moon was like a flaming BALL sitting on top of a not so distant mountain...thankS for this..and I am still alive ;)

I am disgusted by the constant BURNING of nature local & global... (why? for more new roads & construction..no invests in river & train...the better way_ ) as in Klinci I scolded the lad (or his boss) for polluting the air ANd destroying bushes *and wild life living there) as I walked back at the weekend..

Sunday ...

Its funny because the sun shining and it feels nore like spring than winter ..a  lot of people drive down to "my coast" (and for sure will leave rubbish) the locals removed my temporary "sleeping policeman" intended to slow the a-holes/& Mmamula worker / chiefs cars down... Z said "its hard here alone in the winter"  well, NO shops, no cafe, no washing machine, no TV (no wifi/mobile is MY OWN choice) with  a damp bedroom and a fewv idiots / stray dogs (difficult to tell them apart) still around...I resent them disturbing me when I want to sit in the sun   by "big blue" (caffe ruin, that I cleaned up, on wild beach) //...

better being "ALONE" than surrounded by the wrong sheeple...!

btw Z, if your propeller is still clogged up... I will dive...you just have to bring "Kristina" to me AND;

- a divers mask.

- a VERY sharp knife

- a flask of "slatka kafa " with a couple of rakija shots...

and I will solve it for you!

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Hiya Chi,                                                

do not know if you got several mails i copied to you, but my "LOG" is at cser5.blogspot.com if you can access it! ////.. which would give you an insight to my current ~lifestyle" ;)

what part of that country are you in, I was In Salzburg a couple of times,  which I enjoyed, apart from that I often dropve through to the Italian regions 

before i "dropped out" (of system) ..

I WOULD REALLY BE "Made up" if you drove here/// ...and stay as long as you like, perhaps it may surprise you that I dont get many visitors here (google Lucista bay, Miriste/Zanjica beach) as somme might expect, its busy high season, but I am virtually alone now, until ...

so you, (and your dancing shoes, ha ha ) are MORE than welcome, (what are you doing now, there?) if you can do that here

come, its a beautiful place, as (my) base (even if the sheeple are not so much ! ha ha) 

Ciao for now

ChRiS

if you dont get answers from this address / (sometimes blocked) use chrisfandu@prontomail.com ok?

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Hello Michael,

I dont know if you got the last message...

(below)

but, I have now BOUGHT a new winter jacket, and a bike here is virtually useless (maybe I could keep it at radovici )

anyway ...as the winter is half through , the urgency for my winter jacket/gloves is less... (it would be good though if you could check that my bike/jacket/gloves

are still at the caffe, (in case they think iam dead) ///.. and a) there is an international event 12 feb 

 at HN/Rose I will email you about soon....

and b) ask your buddy Aleksa if his CHIEF hasd informed him about my offical complaint to MNE govt?

+

to MSp & co.(son)..not sure if the "footy trials for 10 - 15 years old will go ahead.(weekend 21 jan) .I am waiting on a LOCAL football field location BUT, am also told that most parents wont allow their kids OURside in the "cold air" and during C19 bullsh&te alerts before the return to "skola" (not expected before 24 jab) thats 3 weeks plus "hols" for the hard-done by kiddies (no wonder the adults can bear to walk anywhere, if THEIR parents had ferried them by car everywhere, I NEVER see anyone walking either when I hike to Rose or Radovici.. no wonder they are so weak as adults... (ask Dawn if anyone registered? via feck book?) Vesna / oncept)Neda at the shop to help?

Michal> I wish to help your son, but no reason to come to Pg , just to help Katun/Zoran Gazda..who failed me many times and didnt support me there or my initiatives! !!! (in fact also betrayed my trust)

ChRiS/MREdS management /training (1TEAM concept) see .jpg?

BTW, only the 3RD person since NINE months stopped to give me a ride (although I was 3/4 of the way there..as I said late time " so much for :CHRISTian spciety"///(at Xmas!) ha ha ha hypocrites are also sheeple ina local & global world which is now in the 2nd year of CAPITULATION.. (my parents generation gave so much for the current sh&yte to surrender!)

j10, so with NO "Bosco-Bus_ (promised as usual without result) = no boat to HN this day..so ..

another 25kms :hike" ..going against a "wind" which wiped out the terrace again last night (tried to replace this morning in the dark..but..some more stuff broken (or blown elsewhere..it lifts up heavy table like a hidden hand (like the storm in Gumps shrimp boat sceme..I am shouting at the wind whilst it moves me across the road GOING  to...town..

have "engliush breakfast" to give me a full stomach for the retturn (which is mostly 6kms UP from there..with (some) shopping, as I never know when the next chance is..(nothing here within 12 kms ) apart from the fattycats restaurant..oh and when i see the local "community police GUestapo checking "who has been vaxed" I will a) tell themn that totally controlled and vaxed footballers get your bug and b) that without a "state of emergency" THETY are illegal AND c)to FECK OFF, you nazty swine! ;0

talking of swine...Z (who fought in the military during the last conflict) said "he would fight again to defend  this country" I cant understand that, BECAUSE  HE surely KNOWS that just the few  rich/powerful/corrupt benefit here !! ..so why fight for a flag/nation that abuses the 90% of the people (*TRUE in most nations BTW!) ???????????????/

https://cser5.blogspot.com/2022/01/httpscser5.html     11 jan

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.........11th January>

.....  attached , I rip up your Montenegrin Constitution, aloing with the ECHR/UN SHAM!

.........J9...well its was 10 kns of rain, luckily only slight rain ,and I had to smile (NO i NEEDED to smile, at the irony) usually there i almost NO traffic on the road, buy I saw a car parked as i walked UP from the coast (400 steps) with a local registration inc "JC"..remember that day was the 2nd Xmas day for the orthadocx "CHRISTIANS",,, JC...hmmm I thought.. then as I started walking on the road back to "HOME base"... the same car passed me TWICE. and as usual here idnt offer (as the rain drizzled down) any help, well, I though thats YOUR "CHRISTIAN" world..and a REASON I will NEVER again celebrate your XMAS>> because YOU are ALL hypocrites, its supposed to celebrate the (wrong date..but) birth of the JESUS ChRiST saviour.. but..what happeneed to humanity since?/ who acks like a "Christian" NO one except a token gesture ...from an old seadog..  i wont say "go to hell" because you are all already IN IT!

...........J8, well |Bozic" was short & VERY sweet, and 2 away days at the coastal "last resort" ha ha, as the sweet stuff was at the caffe..(the only one) ,i was warmed by some rare local hospitality by an old sea dog, sadly the  one I invited was (again) too busy, but be thankful for small mercies..and (see MOntV) i will be offline and without visiors as Gabriel & co cancelled, maybe "DAN" ...who knows what tomorrow will bring..as I clocked up OVER 100 kms in the previous week, and there is still no bus next week ..or..but I am just a novice compared to "Raz@ who visited me several years ago in Pg,  she packed in her job took the channel ferry and WALKED to Istanbul (4,5000 kms in that year!)

........Jan 7 ,,,its :Bozic: here in my :exiled: F & U base ...(xmas to most of you) so I just re-visit Fing BOOK to wish you  all you DESERVE... and use the events feature to do so, unlikely that I will post again until May (*B-day).. as using alternatives

     is a BETTER & much more creative use of my time!  Best wishes anyway ChRiS x

 PREVIOUS ; https://cser5.blogspot.com/2022/01/chris-high-king-trek-king-more-update.html

to 220113\\\\...if on line ..in EXILE!

no more enough chat ! REbEL ! SUPPORT  REbEL-LIONS local & Global, if u dont resist PLEASE DO NOT contact me "CHrIS live best of FIVE! (MY 15m creative ViSUAL compilation ) ; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5T_EgLh7YUc

join groups via email ngo@mypod-net.org / fumission@urson.net  ; montv-chrislog.blogspot.com  *updating)

& @ mewe.com/i/chrissmith1059 Original videos at REdAWN LIVEBirDS (co-op) Channel 

(insider video (MONTE home part 1 ; https://youtu.be/0BnzmeSwYTQ

previous CSLOG at : cser5.blogspot.com/2022/01/chris-high-king-trek-king-more-update.html

.........11th January>

.....  attached , I rip up your Montenegrin Constitution, along with the ECHR/UN SHAM!

.........J9...well its was 10 kms of rain, luckily only slight rain ,and I had to smile (NO i NEEDED to smile, at the irony) usually there i almost NO traffic on the road, buy I saw a car parked as i walked UP from the coast (400 steps) with a local registration inc "JC"..remember that day was the 2nd Xmas day for the Orthodox "CHRISTIANS",,, JC...hmmm I thought.. then as I started walking on the road back to "HOME base"... the same car passed me TWICE. and as usual here NO offer (as the rain drizzled down) any help, well, I though thats YOUR "CHRISTIAN" world..and a REASON I will NEVER again celebrate your XMAS>> because YOU are ALL hypocrites, its supposed to celebrate the (wrong date..but) birth of the JESUS ChRiST saviour.. but..what happened to humanity since?/ who acks like a "Christian" NO one except a token gesture ...from an old seadog..  i wont say "go to hell" because you are all already IN IT!

...........J8, well |Bozic" was short & VERY sweet, and 2 away days at the coastal "last resort" ha ha, as the sweet stuff was at the caffe..(the only one) ,i was warmed by some rare local hospitality by an old sea dog, sadly the  one I invited was (again) too busy, but be thankful for small mercies..and (see MOntV) i will be offline and without visitors as Gabriel & co cancelled, maybe "DAN" ...who knows what tomorrow will bring..as I clocked up OVER 100 kms in the previous week, and there is still no bus next week ..or..but I am just a novice compared to "Raz@ who visited me several years ago in Pg,  she packed in her job took the channel ferry and WALKED to Istanbul (4,5000 kms in that year!)

........Jan 7 ,,,its :Bozic: here in my :exiled: F & U base ...(xmas to most of you) so I just re-visit Fing BOOK to wish you all you DESERVE... and use the events feature to do so, unlikely that I will post again until May (*B-day).. as using alternatives

     is a BETTER & much more creative use of my time!  Best wishes anyway ChRiS x

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Tuesday, its now about 80kms walked/hiked since friday.. no bus, nit even taxi-boat?  because kids on school holidays??..anyyway left early afetr a @night shift@ wake up call at around 03h...i had gone to bed at before 19h because of a power cut (seemed logical rather than using battery laptop, and candles..) saw @combie man@ in Radovici..seemed miffed (i should be?)..

anyway "rain god" (GOOD) on MY side this morning from 04h to 13h (return just a few sports , in spite of a wet forecast... took the brolly anyway, looks good as an alternative to the 1 or 2 finger salute to the fecking car/truck drivers who wizz past me without slowimg/// feck em! ;)

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and part 2 positives & problems at

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