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| atomic mood ; how I felt this week |
it’s the time of year
age & fear
the darkest days
& the darkest ways
Weakness brings ends
Nature disease and death sends
If we focus on the dark
Its eats us like a shark
When betrayal becomes expected
And insult becomes the norm
Make yourself tall
Make a positive form
Its easy to join the herd
And act like a t*rd (!)
Be an example for any kid
Accept consequence for what you
did..
My pain and anger I must contain
Turn it into gain
If people forget , and make me sad
My energy must use that bad …
ChRiS 25th Nov. 2012 26 days ..until….
Miss
Harvey?...are u Crazy, just like me?
never fall
in love again http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjpjuRVNPaM
Suppose u are now safely back in your family home! I still wish u well
- Am sorry my pain became anger & sorry u
don’t understand! Cuvaj se, molim, take CARE, ChRiS
the only man I "trust" here, to talk to ..his father is dying,
so I cant ..share with anyone...
Dark Dan(i) Ca 's Bright Stars..of Hope..appear
("danas" = days in local speak)
("danas" = days in local speak)
I don't identify myself as a
"Tiger", but whilst I criticise the sheep for following too easily the
"establishment" or today the "media" which they let control
them, I am also thankful, because ppl acting
like sheep enabled me to be different by taking chances , going many places
& meeting lots of ppl, and having "risky" experiences that they
didnt.
.... 
most ppl are happy to live in a "matrix"
illusion, because the truth "hurts" ....Dobar Dan i Ca (va?) ... be happy and honest with yourself.. and true to
your soul, "crazy soul-mate" :) i wish you well, to understand me,
and yourself one day! soon... take CARE (because you have been "careless")Gnarls
Barkley - Crazy LYRICS
most ppl are happy to live in a "matrix"
illusion, because the truth "hurts" ....Dobar Dan i Ca (va?) ... be happy and honest with yourself.. and true to
your soul, "crazy soul-mate" :) i wish you well, to understand me,
and yourself one day! soon... take CARE (because you have been "careless")Gnarls
Barkley - Crazy LYRICS 
Note to Vera, your sister is (not) my “biggest fan” ... (that is Brits Humour! ) I lost contact with your "Ms Harvey" again/
....last time, she said she was coming home to your family home .please kindly pass this message to her..if its not too much trouble for you
...... and tell her I hope she understands me... & herself too , one day...
Dobar Dan i
Ca,A poem (!?
Think what you have done
I knew you were the one.
But today’ s girls “just wanna have fun”
YOU can be & make good
& we both know you should
Use your talents to make it so
Will you go?
"Sitting
in the sun….."
Think what you have done
I knew you were the one.
But today’ s girls “just wanna have fun”
YOU can be & make good
& we both know you should
Use your talents to make it so
Will you go?
(will you ever know...what you lost?)
I got
drunk, and killed my memory during an unexpected night out with the lads saturday
night (Fab & Dave...sounds like a singing duo?<smile>)
it helped to forget for a little while..
adding some stuff to...
http://www.youtube.com/user/MyPodNetMc5
it helped to forget for a little while..
adding some stuff to...
http://www.youtube.com/user/MyPodNetMc5
do u
want to shut me
out.? ..on sunday and i didnt want to feel like this,,, i wish .....well
I
wrote too much...the last message in drunken anger with everyone
including yoU..this night, went out and got drunk ..but i would NEVER
dis respect the
people, thatb i care about..WHY did U DIS R E S P E C T me? u do not
CARE! and that is why u will burn in hell! (if u dont care) u cannot
escape KARMA! ( many )ppl here are racist, fascist, and bigots, prove to
me that YOU deserve MY
RESPECT?>?????f**k (FB) admin too!
i just sometimes want to show someone whats inside of me at
this time.....(atomic mood)
(updated
& mixed ..) "The Journey of the HONEST man is attacked on all sides by the injustice of the selfish
women and the tyranny of evil men.
Lucky is
he who in the name of charity and goodwill guides the weak through the world
of darkness, for he is truly his
brother's supporter and rescuer of lost
children."
……"and
you shall KNOW MY NAME…..when….
"Man
of a poisoned wife, father of stolen children, I shall , in this life or the
next"..."I shall have my Vengance"...
Gladiator"The Journey of the HONEST man is attcked on all sides by the injustice of the selfish women and the tyranny of evil men.
Lucky is he who in the name of charity and goodwill guides the weak through the world of darkness, for he is truly his brother's supporter and rescuer of lost children."
……and you
shall KNOW MY NAME…..when….
I shall have
my Vengance... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNdKBPcVGJI Man of a
poisoned wife, father of stolen children, I shall , in this life or the next...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WMO72KRoL4Y
Crazy ..Gnarls Barclay ; with
lyrics ;)
crazy
(Seal) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZaGFoeSJJjw
CONMEN ...
...yankers, fannies & idiots let a Great man go to Chelski, and its OUR loss, typical of a perverse society...
LOVE Rafa!
some (failed) "pundits & tv experts" point to
"failures" like Keane & Aquilani (who in fact was dumped, shortly
after getting his form back, by Hodgson, who prefered Poulsen!)
Rafa brought us
class players ;
Alonso & Arbeloa (both @ Real Madrid) Torres (fastest ever Lfc player to score 50 goals)
Agger (Capt. of denmark) Skrtel (slovakian player of Year & fans player of the year) & Lucas, last season's Lfc player of the year
..signed Mascherano,(redundant @ w.ham & now a regular @ Barca) plus Glen Johnson & Pepe Reina...
Alonso & Arbeloa (both @ Real Madrid) Torres (fastest ever Lfc player to score 50 goals)
Agger (Capt. of denmark) Skrtel (slovakian player of Year & fans player of the year) & Lucas, last season's Lfc player of the year
..signed Mascherano,(redundant @ w.ham & now a regular @ Barca) plus Glen Johnson & Pepe Reina...
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| Rafa & Montse, a nice guy & A great manager |
...&
brought many of the young players in to the academy & brought back Kenny to
the club...
no TRUE RED could deny Rafa's value... but neither F S G or
"buck" consulted him..
a MASSIVE insult to Rafa and so many of OUR
SUPPORTERSwho love him!!!
Opinions F-way. We Come
Not To Pay ··
IF F S G WERE WISE... THEY
WOULD HAVE GONE FOR HIM
F-way. We Come
Not To Pay · ·
Talk of the KOP ; For all those who have there hopes high regarding
January, BR has said that the Club is looking to balance the books this year
and that means not more than a couple of 'decent' signings, by that I mean No
Cavani,Erikson etc.
FSG are waiting for the New TV rights deal to kick in which
will make the prices Go up from 2.3 Million pounds a match to 6.5 pounds.
is not a word that I
would use in the same sentence as Henry & Werner.
Greg>.wise? they didnt go for him
as they knew he wouldnt take their shit with his experience? imagine Rafa being
told he couldbt be funded 5 or 6 million for Clint Dempsey? gk
ChriS SmiTH> this comment is 2 years too late, henry as with hicks dont want anyone who (Rafa or Kenny) who have a strong will & wont sell their soul for a fat pay cheque...! we have to fight to get our club back from yankers & fickle "fannies"
ChriS SmiTH> this comment is 2 years too late, henry as with hicks dont want anyone who (Rafa or Kenny) who have a strong will & wont sell their soul for a fat pay cheque...! we have to fight to get our club back from yankers & fickle "fannies"
stay away
from that "my team" nonsense frim the media, u surely dont change
players for the sake of your ego, do U? "Buck".
.
SEAN>Fans
are being fooled left right and centre by Fenway and their PR stunts. They use
the FIFA financial Fair Play policy to hide behind their Bullshit. Balancing
the books me arse. (Seanoc)
F-way. We Come
Not To Pay · ·
Talk of the KOP ; For all those who have there hopes high regarding
January, BR has said that the Club is looking to balance the books this year
and that means not more than a couple of 'decent' signings, by that I mean No
Cavani,Erikson etc.
FSG are waiting for the New TV rights deal to kick in which
will make the prices Go up from 2.3 Million pounds a match to 6.5 pounds.
I hate it too guys, but by the looks of it looks like
the Frustration of the season has just begun
ChriS SmiTH then do something , stop moaning and join the boycott, no more official shop sales, buy rebellion t-shirts and stand up against FSG... its easy to complain and do nothing!
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| YES , i'm referring to YOU on the left, & Karma WILL get U |
zDravo, “Ms Harvey”
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| and a woman who "Cares" too.. |
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| every pic tells a story? |
YOU made a “casual” comment that you find it
“strange” that i dont have a friend that in MNE that I can share my most
intimate PAIN with...
I told U I
have been “moving” since 16, all those people close to me died or were stolen
(one of the reasons for my pain next week, on the 28th) jacqui (who was my
only “friend” for 12 years , buried on my birthday 23 may 2006 , would be
having her birthday on 1st December.....
YOU KNOW
Balkan people have problems with people who are different, even from next
street or village.. (I think in nearly 3 years I saw less than 5 black people
in the whole of ex yugo.!) ...
And they
dont CARE about the problems of other people (you saw this when visiting
“homeless” in Bg!
So why ask
me a stupid question????? Because YOU
dont want to “Care “ about me ? so you look for an excuse?
..to say I am strange..when YOU are also
“Strange” ???
Why do i call you “Ms Harvey” ? because YOU
were my “invisible guest” for the THREE days I booked YOU in prizren CS
meeting....but you were visible that SaturDAY, when I met your SOUL during that good time, and your soul
connected with me , but your head got drunk and diverted by stupid & careless people (who i never met
before!)
What is a
“friend”? in MY CULTURE it is not just
someone to drink & have FUN with (I know “girls just wanna have fun”) ..it 's
someone who I CARE about (you) & who CARES
for me too...(a soul-mate)
I invited
you to share , my secrets, the positive project and IF
YOU WANT to be MY “friend” (better to
identify you as “Soul – Mate “ because that word is too badly used for casual
contacts)
....then share my pain too, its up to you..come only
if you FEEL it! Because ...I AM your
soul-mate, Even if you realise it TOO late! ChriS
p.s. Those
blogs did not mention your name, but u react without even taking time to read
them properly>?
CSerS
I
want to mention also the unusual ......"Triin P" a Girl who seems to
have sensitivity, who stayed with me in summer , trusted me and in
return will always be welcome to be in my life again, she is strong in a
subtle way, thoughtful, and took time to write to me recently about
this difficult time of my life...
Triin> Chris,
add me
CS> "snowhite"
is obviously a mass-debater,its not that difficult to hate her ;)
Causing confusion in Pg, lost
notebook, phone and my atm card..
ooooh, she makes it hard! :)
ooooh, she makes it hard! :)
(warning! :- she eats a lot,
but isnt that "hot" !)
in a couple of days can wreck
yr head!
but she didnt (yet) wreck my bed!
but she didnt (yet) wreck my bed!
but also saw that she can "care"
and that today, is (again) so rare..
and that today, is (again) so rare..
NOT an angel from above..
but someone I could love
in a woody-hemming-WAY,
should not really say..
but someone I could love
in a woody-hemming-WAY,
should not really say..
she's a sort of evil,
"have a nice day"
<SMILE>
<SMILE>
(p.s. this is neutral, until U
return to correct it...! ha ha ha...)
Triin>When I
was on my way to Albania, a driver kept insisting.. be careful, be careful. I
mentioned Kosovo. His reply was.. FORGET Kosovo. Maybe he was paranoid. I'm
going to head out now. Bye Chrissy
CS> Just
because..someone else has to know me..... cser5.blogspot.com
Triin> Chris..In fact, when I was in Greece,
a friend offered to come and pick me up in Albania and drive with me to
Croatia, we had a nice journey. So I passed Montenegro.. unfortunately not Podgorcia.
I kept thinking of you when I passed by Kotor. I want to see you. I feel happy,
but also confused. As if I'm lost. I'd like to speak with you again, to share..
whatever. We will.I am in Croatia right now.I feel like I have a lot to
learn from you :)So I need to see you again,
whenever,
So I need to see you again,
whenever,
<snip> in, at times I also feel these feelings but I
try to distract them. Which isn't a smart solution, because you can distract
them only for so long. We were born to live, yet the more I grow the more it
seems we're doing the opposite of it, life is still beautiful and I find a lot
of colors in it but it's life, and life is tough, it can be painful, we're
doing our best to survive.
And after knowing you for that short while, I hope I was correct, I felt you
were sort of innocent, in a way that I can't see you doing harm to a person.
Surely you don't deserve the awful events that you've been put through. You're
a strong, gentle man, and if I were there I'd stay with you during this hard
time, speak with you, whatever, wherever.. just the presence of another person can ease
pain I believe. Beautiful writing, too..
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| Jacqui is on the right of the picture...R.I. P. |
CS>Triin
, Triin, my lost girl, let me find u...or come and find me .. be happy and
honest with yourself. firstly , please know that I really appreciate your message, i dont want u
to be sorry for me..but i hope that we understand each other..
and for me ..that is the most important thing I can obtain right
now..because i dont want to share with just "anyone")
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WMO72KRoL4Y its a
dark tiime for me too..i feel strong, but emotive.. my 11 year old, has
birthday on 28th november and i dont know where her mother took her.. and my
deceased wife Jacqui who was such a beautiful person inside & out, and my
only friend in my adult life (was buried on my birthday in 2006) would have her
birthday on 1st december..so I am missing my "girls" .. no one to
hug...i have to much to give,, so I plan rebellion instead..
:)
in some ways we are SO different, yet similar, we have both young & old
being inside us... and all of us have dark sides too .. I did wrong things when
I was younger, not with intent but i was careless, and i suppose karma took its
revenge, and i also look for the positive , losing all those who were close to
me made place for me to care for "strangers" (you?) ..
and i do care ...I think often "how is Triin" (another "lost child")
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| Noela the week before the ambush & abduction |
...yes it would be
easier if u were here, but U are not, so (as i wrote in the "poem") I
have to find energy to turn the pain into something good, force myself into
positive action, so I will , I believe that sharing is good, but there is no
one around ...i will deal with it as I have done so many times.. this time is a
particularly "weird coincidence of birthdays", Noela 28th Nov. Jacqui
1st december & my son Adam, who died a long time ago.. december 16th"
I HAVE to do things and I hate to be quiet at this time,,,
so i plan to travel
, pity I wont see you before, but U know, in that short time, you touched my
soul.. YOU will never walk alone
and I want u to feel U can trust me with your feelings too..
take CARE x
p.s we dont "get what we deserve" ..but sometimes we get what we
need ...
Tanja B> a bit dark but encouraging .. very nicely composed..like it!!! you are so
special
its
a dark time of the year,Jacqueline, i have been very angry lately.. and
its a time of the year that
hurts me,, I am sharing this "poem" with u, I wrote it just after
reading your Fb note about your loss.. it came to me within minutes.. a
local man i sort of know, and trust..has his own "load" as
his father is dying in hospital as i write, and he cant do anything, so I
cant
discuss my own pain..
next wednesday (28th November) will be the 11th
birthday of my little girl, Noela, who was stolen from me 8 years ago..i dont
know where her mother has taken her... and next saturday would have been the
birthday of "My Jacqui", with whom i was married & a friend more
than 12 years, and who was buried on my birthday in 2006.. someone new let me
down recently ... and its taken its toll.. i am strong to move on... but right
now, this moment,,,I want to share this...
G xmaS host?
[19:41:16] Chris Smith: adios (whats bye bye in Lithuanian?)
[19:41:50] GI-to-wonderland: iki!
[19:41:58] Chris Smith: dont forget the dancing..thats a NEED of mine, we
have to go dancing, iki!
GI-to-wonderland[19:41:58] GI-to-wonderland: and montenergian ?
[19:48:56] Chris Smith: ciao! (like the italian)
[19:49:30] Chris Smith: monteneGRIN :D
[19:50:05] GI-to-wonderland: (wave)
[19:50:31] Chris Smith: x : laku noc (goodnight)
[19:51:15] Chris Smith: (sun) : sunny girl!
Although
most member requests I get are genuine , I have had too many "bogus"
contacts this year, this One "Charlotta" (penned under the name
"VIKINGC" from New York, USA (Age: 40:
FemaleGrew up
in: Denmark )I dont honestly think she is a member, and probably isnt a true "CSer" and just another
time waster?It took 18 days to
inform me , and although registered over 3 years,she dont have ONE
single reference,,“strange”….”, be
careful with this dubious lady! :)
(in assoc. with
http://www.facebook.com/groups/152996974833540
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&
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Monty - Logic (net) provides you with FUN and freedom to explore for just a few
euros...
We have agreed with friendly club members in The Balkans - centred in
Montenegro ("Monty" )
to provide
- "House-Telling" .... Family houses and surrounding land converted
to friendly accomodation @ several locations
- for economy travellers & "back packers", Couch-surfers or other
CSers simply in Transit and who want a comfortable and friendly environment,
apartment, dorm, or to share as a group...
- advices on hiking routes, nature experiences,
- or to enjoy the mountains, lakes, beaches,
- additional economy tours, transfers, rafting, swimming or sailing..
- alone, with company, or in groups
- alternative choices; B nd B; or join evening grill parties
- stay on your own, or with a travel partner, or mix with an international
membership
- information on Cultural events; Concerts and other good stuff from our
website
join our club or book early by email is recommneded to obtain the best choices
make friends and have.. a LOT of fun...of course "not for
profit" as far as the club is concerned, we will invite members to
particpate.. need to add that camping facilities are available too)
share my links
ChRiS 25th Nov. 2012
26 days
..until….the world ...changes!
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| The World is y-OURS = SHARE IT!!! NOELA |
my estranged daughter
, Noela will be 11 tomorrow, (28th) she was brutally abducted during
an ambush near OUR home 8 years ago by her mothers fascist family henchmen, I
have no idea where she is, and what is so hard about this "open wound"
is that i read such hatred & bigotry and fear the "negative
education" that system teaches y-our children
... I read just now
someone repeating the Enoch Powell bigotry that we laughed at decades ago... (a
2nd rate Adolf) .. europeans took the best resources, land and minerals from
all over the world , by force, and now complain about immigrants
my response now as
then..
... hmmmm yeah Enoch
reminded me then of another guy with a moustache who spouted this sort of
sh*te,
..enjoy the world instead of being little
englanders!
Hmmm Adolf also had a
very big book to "justify purification of society"
... problem is that
ppl have also adopted the worst of the "american dream" and are
obsessed with the nightmare ; commercialism & "fast food living"
instead of enjoying local & global culture in a positive way.
.. guns & bombs
& WMD are not the inventions of "immigrants" if an intelligent
species looked at this planet they would laugh at (y)our obsession with walls
fences & "national identity"
... :) go polish yr
jackboots!
Leon Dole > Most of Britain was built by immigrants. Look at all major
cities in the UK and you'll find immigration identity stamped all over it.
Powell is a racist, however, the sheeple follow this kind of shite as they only
see what's not actually there? Resession and tough times bring out the worst in
human nature. Get ready for riots in the UK, it's not immigration that cuts
benefits, hospitals, schools, factories, colleries, police force, armed forces,
council finances. Wake up folks the Tories are back and they will blame every
man and his dog for lowering your 'British' life style. However, at the root of
it all is your multi-millionaire Government shafting you. Then blaming the most
vulnerable in society, thus having the British people turn on itself. Wake up
to a new political sytle in the UK. The rich making themselves richer, blaming
the poor and in turn the worker blaming the poor. Whilst being robbered blind
by the rich. Sorry not a new style, just a newer Government.
28th
November = Noela ‘s 11th Birthday
“To my stolen child”
I don’t know where you
are
Probably you are far
You will always be in
my heart
Even though 8 years we
have been apart
Your mother I try not
to hate
But The gender that
caused this “fate”
they seem to be so
selfish
I only have, for you,
one wish;
When you are grown ,
Please Don’t follow
that creed
Be a GOOD woman…
in thought & IN Deed
Your Dad xxxxx
ChRiS SMITH
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